The plan.

She stopped and turned to Charles. "Will it work?"
"My prayers?"
"Yes."
"It will help. To what extent, I don't know."
"But how can you not know?"
Charles gave a brief smile and then returned to the gravity of the situation that surrounded them. "I don't have to know. I'm not supposed to know. I'm supposed to be obedient. That's why I'm here. This is why I've come."

Last Friday we were asked at fellowship what our goals and visions are for the term. I really had nothing smart to say or share; just some stuff about wanting to serve again, and get to know God again.
We did the same sort of thing last night at small group. And in five short days, I was able to develop more specific goals/visions, thanks in part to the Charles Mulli biography I was reading. After finishing it, I realize how hardened and skeptical I've become, and how little faith I really have. I think a major thing that I forgot was that we are called simply to obey. To seek God's will, and to follow it. It's not our job to know how things will turn out, but if you are doing things for God, you can't fail.

So, action plan:
1. be more proactive in looking for ways to serve/help, ie. at fellowship. starting with... leading discussion group tomorrow. It's been years since I've served/led at CCF, I'm scared.
2. pray for this potential mission trip to Kenya. It's still in the works, so I'm not even sure it will happen. I was really concerned about the cost - I still am - but after reading the book, I know that money is never a roadblock in doing God's work.
3. tithe/donate 10% of this term's bursaries
4. take more responsibility and learn to plan ahead (in general), ie. start applying for summer jobs, looking for sublets, etc.

To what end? So that after all is said and done, I can look up and say:

"I've done what I can. We will continue to pray and wait and see."